thanks

Thank you,

I can barely stand.
I just feel trapped! i Feel like i am going to explode! Hardly anything makes me happy anymore. which is my fault " by the way." The thoughts of love and confidence barely cross my mind, and i feel doged with hate, dissapointment, and sadness. Food no longer has taste and my desire for food is well, gone. Really, tastes like dirt. I am sick of not being mentally in school. foucus is so hard to find lately. Lisa is auditioning today, and i hope she does great..... I should be there. I always felt like i would be one of those people who stand on the world, above it all. Above thingslike being scared, filled with unknown thoughts, and mentall exhaustion, It seems like every time i start climbing up from the bottom, something knocks me down. Can i ever just get out of this hole? I just want to be, who i want to be, the all pure....goddess..... me.

~By ashley Kalchik